Yesterday and today I am regretful, wishing that I had signed up for a Seattle TK “30 Day Art Challenge. For this challenge the artist enrolls, pays, and receives 30 8″x10” canvas boards which must be completed & returned in 30 days to be exhibited at December ArtWalk.

I decided not to enter this challenge due to my current stress level, and current commitments to family and friends. But on another level, I feel so ready for this challenge. I could do it! And it would be fun, exciting, etc.

Realistically meeting this challenge would require a time commitment that I do not want to make just now. I am too enmeshed in other things, some (but not all) of my own choosing, of course. Unfortunately some of these things are painful, and it is difficult not to be resentful.

I don’t need more stress in my life at the moment, and I fear that my other commitments would turn a fun challenge into painful stress! Perhaps next year I will be able to take the plunge with fewer conflicts, but of course the fear is that there will always be other commitments and time conflicts!